"kelip-kelip disangka api,kalau api mana puntungnya, hilang ghaib disangka mati, kalau mati mana kuburnya... "

Fuh~
I just got back from my Pharmacokinetics Presentation.
Alhamdulillah, everything went well.

However, somehow I feel a little disappointed with the guys in my group for leaving me stranded without a word to say in front of the whole class. (iskh.. lelaki lagi..)
I know the fact that a presenter and also the whole group should be familiar with what is being presented. But if a presenter is asked in depth regarding something that she did not read up, of course the person who has greater knowledge should explain right?
Dalam erti kate lain, bile saya x reti nak present sebab soklan itu bukan berkaitan dengan bahagian tugas saya, sepatutnya orang yang buat kajian psal bahagian tuh la yang patut present kan?
Huhu.. I think the girls in my group would agree with what I just said.
I don't mind getting low marks, but I feel disappointed because it took so long for them to get up from their seats and help me out.
Sampai nak kena panggil ke depan baru nak datang. Itu pun payah btol nak bangun.. Sampai hati..

I guess I shouldn't feel that way because it was my fault for not reading it up. Let it be a lesson for me in the future.
I guess I should just let it go..
Sempena bulan puasa ni, kita belajar memaafkan and bersabar ye..

Nevermind...

tukar topic..

I was about to sleep last night when my roommate suddenly called me to her compartment. I thought that there was something wrong but I was amazed to find that little blinking creature on Aina's table..

"Eh2... Kelip-kelip!!"

Photograph by Taylor S. Kennedy
http://animals.nationalgeographic.com.au/animals/printable/firefly.html

So, that is the main reason for the title of this entry. Not in Kuala Selangor, but in my roommate's compartment, I get to see a firefly for the 1st time in my life! hahah..

hahaha.. My roommates were suprised to find out that it was my 1st time to see a firefly. Yelaa.. Besides TNB's commercial, documentaries and books, I guess I've never seen one!

Okay, enough about fireflies..

Hari ni nak berbuka ape yer??
hmm...

TAK LARAT~

huhu.. lagi dkat nk raye, lagi cepat penat pulak.
kerja pun byk jugak..

A DIFFERENT POSE TODAY..
I wonder why this meow2 loves to sleep under this tree...

LAZILY BEING ME...

Ooops..!~
Friday again already?

BESTNYE DIE TDO..~
ni idup ke x ni?? hahah..

STUPIDITY VS. LOYALTY??

Saya memang bodoh. Adakalanya, saya akan menantikan sesuatu yang tak mungkin akan berlaku. Ada juga masa saya mengharapkan sesuatu yang tidak baik untuk berlaku kepada orang lain dengan harapan ia akan memberi kepuasan kepada diri saya sendiri. Ada juga masa saya akan menantikan orang yang entah patut saya nantikan atau tak. Kadangkala saya tak dapat nak menilai sesuatu keadaan dan tidak dapat membuat pilihan. Ada kalanya, saya membuat perkara-perkara yang saya tahu saya tak patut lakukan dan perkara-perkara yang salah. Kadang-kadang saya akan mengorbankan perasaaan sendiri untuk menjaga hati orang yang entah patut tak saya jaga. Ini semua menyebabkan saya rasa sangat bodoh. Jadi, kenapa teruskan juga kalau dah tahu??

I should’ve known that I shouldn’t have got myself involved in things that would in the end hurt myself.

I'm sorry ibu.. I should've listened to you..

SAYA MAHU TIDO!

I’ve been trying to sleep since 10pm. I shut my eyes but I just can’t sleep.. and I wonder why..

So, I got up and decided to list the things that I need to do..

REPORTS:

1. Hospital Attachment
2. Pharmacognosy
3. Dosage Design
4. Pharmacokinetics

ASSIGNMENT:

1. Pharmacokinetics
2. Entrepreneurship Skills

Thank God, tomorrow is a holiday. So, I get extra time for myself..

My laundry basket is full.. My room is so dusty! I only have a few ironed clothes in my locker. My notes and books are everywhere! I haven’t touched the books I borrowed from the library.. My desktop looks like this:

(Yes, it doesn’t look like a desktop.. It looks like a normal folder which is so unorganized!)

and I haven’t revised anything since the midsem exams.. My life is a mess.. (Get the picture?) I really REALLY need to get myself back on the right track!

My list of things to do tomorrow:

• Sahur
• Finish up Reports 1 and 2.
• Do the laundry
• Clean up the room
• Collect clothes from the laundry
• Buy mineral water
• Go to the Bazaar
• Break fast with classmates
• Tarawih prayers

Actually, I'm a little disappointed with the article that was published in The Star today.. Sampai hati..

Tuesday September 16, 2008

Pharmacy students hold awareness event

KUANTAN: Two hundred pharmaceutical majors from all over the country attended a gathering of students at a pharmacy in Kuantan Parade recently.

State deputy director of the pharmacy department, Sheik Nurudin Sheik Sharudin, officiated at the event.

Its objective was to establish and develop the role of pharmacists and make known their contribution to the public.

The participants represented renowned establishments such as Universiti Malaya, Universiti Sains Malaysia, Universiti College Sedaya International, UiTM, International Medical Univeristi and AIMST.

A host of activities were lined up including health awareness programmes and talks, counselling for smokers, video shows and demonstrations.

Sheik Nurudin said the role of pharmacists was important as they were entrusted with prescribing the right medicine, dosage and advice on taking drugs.

He said that a big allocation had been set aside to organise exhibitions and campaigns to create public awareness on pharmacy.

The event was closed by Malaysian Pharmaceutical Society president Abdul Aziz Jamaluddin at De Rhu Beach Resort.

During the closing, a declaration by the participants to safeguard professionalism was handed over to Abdul Aziz to be forwarded to the Health Ministry.

Participant Teh Poh Chin, 22, said she was in the second year of studies at UCSI.

“I am proud to take up this course to serve the people.

“I must undergo training at a government hospital for three years after graduation,” she said.

Nurulsyada Ali, a second-year student at UiTM, said the tutors were devoted in monitoring the progress of students.

Seremban lass Rita Mohan, a third-year student, said she understood the course as it was mostly in English and it would continue to improve her knowledge.

That is not what happened during NoGAPS.. Hello? It was not held at a pharmacy okay? And hello?? It was hosted by IIUM.. How can you forget to mention that?? Penat jer prepare all those materials for the media. Sorry la Syafiq, if I wasn't a good assistant.. I didn't know that things would end up this way.. Haih..

Now, I think I really need to sleep.. It's already 11.50pm and I need to get up early tomorrow. There's so much to be done!

FEVER AND FOOD??

What has fever got to do with food eh? Never mind, you'll understand why i chose the title above for this entry..

Alhamdulillah, last weekend I was able to go home. I thought I didn't want to go home because I thought i wanted to finish my work and study. When I called ibu to say that I wasn't going home, she sounded a little diappointed. Since the due dates for my report was postponed and I was also sick, homesick.. I decided to go home in the end. hehee.. I had a bad cold, fever and cough. So, I really had to go home.

Well, the main reason I went back home was because I wanted to take TokMak to Melaka. Alhamdulillah, her condition has improved. She can now sit. I just hope she'll get better.

So, last Saturday, Tokmak, TokPak, ibu and I went to Melaka in the morning. Ibu drove to Melaka and I drove back to KL. Hahah! I was kind of excited eventhough I knew we were just going to take TokMak to the PakCik's house for treatment. I was excited because I havn't travelled for a very long time! hahah! We got back home around 1.15pm. We were supposed to reach earlier,but I missed an exit at the highway.. heheee.. Sibuk borak2 dgn Tokpak. I was trying to be a nice grandaughter by listening to him. But nevermind, at least we got back home safely.

That evening, Nadya and I broke fast at PJ Hilton. Whoaaa!!! There were SO MANY people! Some even had to wait to be seated. The Hotel had to set up long tables and a few families would be seated at a long table (with less privacy). So, the place looked a little crammed. Luckily, Ayah already reserved a table for us. Pheww~ The food was great!! The dessert was amazing.. They even had pulut durian! I haven't seen Nadya eat so much like that before. The 2 skinny sisters who ate so much!

Hahhaha!!! Ayah joined the both of us around 8.15.. Ibu didn't join us because she had a Majlis Berbuka Puasa somewhere else. Ibu was amazed when she found out that we were still eating at 9.30pm.. Hahah! I was actually still having my fever, cold and cough but it didn't stop me from enjoying my food.. Unbelievable.. We thought we were not going to get up for sahur.

The next day, it was just amazing when we woke up for Sahur. I ate a lot that morning! Nadya also woke up for sahur.. Oh my God.. I just can't express how full we were after having our Sahur.. hahah!

On Sunday, we went to check our new house in the afternoon. Theh, we went to SSF to choose our curtains. Hahah! Nadya and I had a tough time choosing the right curtain for our room.. Ibu also had a tough time making decisions under pressure. She was going to be late for her meeting! huhu.. Then, we went home. Ibu and Nadya headed for Kuala Selangor after that.

I chucked my things into my car and went to the Bazaar Ramadhan at the Stadium with Feeza. I was so happy to see her! If only we had extra time to sit and chit chat.. haih..

Then, I headed back to Kuantan.. Reached Kuantan around 11.30pm.. I was so damn tired! I really enjoyed the chocolate cake I bought earlier at the Bazaar.. It was YUMMY!! If only I knew how to bake cakes like that..


Yesterday, I had Nasi Hujan Panas. IPhA had it's AGM and Grand Iftar.. (Some more delicious food.. hahah! I think my entry this time is basically about food. Hahahah!!)

Okay, enough about delicious food. Now, I have to return back to the ordinary food at the cafe.. huhuhu.. baru pukul 6.00.. dah lembik habis ni haa..

Selamat berbuka!

CARAMEL PUDDING

Huhu.. I don’t feel well today. This morning, when I woke up for Sahur, I had a very bad sore throat. For the whole day, I had to bear the pain and the cough as well. My class is FREEZING COLD!! I felt like going back to my room and getting myself my comforter… huhu..

Saya sangat teringin nak makan pudding caramel. Sebenarnya, berhasrat nak beli di bazaar.. But my timetable is so packed these days. I hate the idea of rushing to pray and walking in the crowd at the bazaar. So, in the end, I just bought myself the pudding at the café. Teringin punya pasal.. Kalau nak harap orang nak tolong memenuhi hasratku ini, jawabnya lambat lagi la kot.. Sometimes, some people can be so oblivious.. Orang dah bagi hint pun x paham2 jgk. Seriously, if someone bought it for me, I’d feel so grateful and terharu (what is terharu in English huh?) hmm, nevermind..

I just got my Pharmacokinetics assignment.. Hahah! You wouldn’t believe what the task is..

Ultraman Tiga, Dyna, Seven and Ace decided to stay on earth longer than usual since they plan to go to “Pharmily Day” at Pantai Sepat, Kuantan, Pahang, Malaysia. It is well known that they can survive only a few minutes in our hevily polluted earth. It is impossible for them to enjoy and play together with IIUM Pharmacy students at Pantai Sepat. They have to attend the function as Ultraman (i.e. not as Hiroshi, Takeshi, Kouji or Keiji) since most of the third year students and their lecturers would like to play with the real Ultraman.

How do you fulfill their hope?

Seriously, I don’t have a clue of what he wants... Dr. Razak really knows how to make us think out of the box. Can you imagine relating Pharmacokinetics with Ultraman?? Hahahah!!!

Can You Fix My H.E.A.R.T?

Bila difikirkan balik kan.. Yang sebenarnya, diorang x buat pape pn..Aku je yang confused terlebih.. Aku yang x reti nak buat decisions..

I’m such a looser.. I can’t even say the things that are on my mind. Such a chicken..I’ve been dragging my relationship for such a very long time. I should have put a stop to it a long long time ago. I’ve been ignoring what my heart says, trying to fix things that don’t even need fixing. But I just never learn from my mistakes… This feeling sucks..

Saya mahukan..
(I’m not specifically describing a person.. These are just my general comments.)

Lelaki yang matured.. a man who can make decisions..
I’m so tired of making decisions.. I’m so bored of getting “xtau” and “ikut suka you laa” as an answer.. I don’t want a man who dictates and act like he owns us women.. Women are not possessions okay? I want a man who actually knows what he’s doing..

Lelaki yang mampu buat saya faham what love is..
What is love?? I seriously have trouble trying to find out the answer to this question..
Men say they love women.. But their actions don’t always portray what they mean. Flowers, teddy bears, gifts, movies, lunch, dinner… Semuanya xde maknanye.. A person can simply say that they love another person.. but at the same time they always do the things that don’t show that they love the person. Some fall in love with another person.. What is this?? Love doesn’t exist in relationships..
People say.. Love is.. love towards God, religion, family, friends, knowledge…

Lelaki yang akan selalu berada bersama saya..
I found long distance relationship tough.. Tapi kalau dekat, tapi rasa mcm kite xde org tu pun, x gune jgk.. But it doesn’t mean that I would need a person physically all the time. All I need is someone whom I can turn to at all times..

Lelaki yang boleh menceriakan saya bila saya xde mood seperti sekarang..
There would be times when I just need to be alone. But it doesn’t mean that I want to be left alone TOTALLY.. Betul cakap Dr Razak, mmg perempuan ske dipujuk. I definitely cant deny that I want people to do the same to me.. So, to all men, blaja la pujuk org.. Walau sengal mcm mane pun anda, blaja la weh.. Sometimes, the small things that you do can also touch our hearts..

Lelaki yang boleh buat saya rasa yang saya x blh hidup tanpa dia..
Most of the time, I find that I think that I’m better off without some people in this world. But who am I to judge whether a person is important in my life or not, because everything created in this world serves their own purposes, right?

Lelaki yang juga merupakan my best friend..
Saya suka lagu ini..

Jason Mraz- Lucky featuring Colbie Caillat

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Will I be lucky? Will I be in love with my bestfriend?

Oh, God.. Am I being too selfish? Adakah saya terlalu demanding??

OH, LELAKI..

Lelaki buat saya confuse….

- Ayah saya buat saya confuse

- Adik saya buat saya confuse

- Kawan2 saya buat saya confuse

- Boyfriend saya buat saya confuse

- Ex-boyfriend saya buat saya confuse

- the leaders in Malaysia buat saya confuse

- semua lelaki buat saya confuse

The conclusion is that:

I AM SO CONFUSED!!!

Lelaki jahat sbab buat saya confused!!

Hahah!

STRESS

Dari tadi sy cuba buat report saya di atas katil, tp nampaknye produktiviti x m’brangsangkn.. Sesungguhnya, sy xde idea nak mengolah ayat utk siap’n report2 yg perlu disiapkan..

This week’s tasks:

Reports:
- Pharmacokinetics
- Dosage Design
- Pharmacognosy
- Hospital Attachment

Assignment:
- Pharmacokinetics

Seminar
- Pharmacy Practice

Huhuhu.. Sesungguhnya, byk kerja yg perlu disiapkan.. tp knape hati ini x tenang??
Haih...~

So, I shifted to my table hoping that I would be able to increase productivity and decided to send an entry tonight. I guess spending a little time to ease my stressful mind wouldn’t harm.

1^st of all, Slamat Menyambut Hari Kemerdekaan to all Malaysians~
2ndly, Slamat Menyambut Ramadhan dan Slamat B’puasa!

Alhamdulillah, midsem exams are over.. I don’t know what to comment on my exams this time. All I have to say is Alhamdulillah… and I'm just hoping for the best.. The midsem exam was definitely a sign for me to gear up and do something for my final exams.

Last weekend, I went home.. Celebrated Merdeka by going out shopping.. For raye! Hahah!! Unbelievable..

The next few days, broke fast at Tokmak’s and Tokpak’s place. Thank Aunty Mahani, Autny Teh and Maksu for cooking..

Yesterday, I reached Kuantan at 6.30pm.. Just in time to prepare to break fast. Alhamdulillah..

These are a few photos of my journey back to Kuantan.. Ade RAINBOW!

Today, I only had 3 classes.. So, I had time to rest and refresh myself.. I was so tired yesterday that I slept right after cleaning up my room. Yelaa, I woke up quite early at home. Woke up early to go to the dentist, pay up bills, do the laundry, send the laundry for dry cleaning, send my dearest darling for service and lots more!It was a short midsem break, I didn’t have much time at home..

Huh.
Sungguh stress!

Now, I have to focus on my studies and the tasks that I’ve listed…
Berusaha Iqa!